Lately I have just been straight up convicted of the fact that I am incredibly selfish! I mean I started to think about it, and I could not think of one area in which I was not selfish. I thank God for allowing the Holy Spirit to show me this. I believe that it could be the biggest brick wall between me and God in my relationship with Him. For instance, on a daily basis, I could read the word, or I could press the snooze button. I could talk to random class mates I see in the hall, or I could open my phone and look at it; like I get a text every time I walk past someone!!! YEAH RIGHT! The thing that convicts me the most, however, is the fact that God has granted me a huge opportunity to reach out to all of my teammates, and although I am building awesome relationships with the guys, I know that I could do sooooo much more…but only when I give up the life I want.
As far as being a leader, I have not chosen to be a leader. What am I scared of? Am I afraid that Jesus, God, the Holy Spirit, the Triune God are not with me always? This is a real battle in my life! It is rockin’ my world. And I love every minute of it. I never want to be comfortable in my faith…but always challenged and desiring to grow deeper. I want to battle for my faith every day.
What a great place to be! im so proud of you..